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- i don't love you.
or - maybe i do.
i don't know anymore.
i've heard it said that love and hate are so close together,
you can't tell them apart.
and i read once - we both did -
that in the moment of killing someone besides yourself with hatred in your bones,
you love them.
so you must have loved me,
then.
i did.
and so you tore and tore
and my heart healed after years around a wound shaped like
the teeth that cut it open. i will bear this
mark of you until i am
old and gray;
i will pass down the stories of how to know
who and who not to lay trust into;
i will teach the children of my children how to tell a broken heart from one that is so very, very cold.
i was willing to forgive the feel of ice among my bones once --
not twice, nor thrice,
nor everything in between. you were like a drug.
you killing me over and over again
was the rehabilitation i needed to show me that
i am stronger than what you have made of me.
i loved you, once.
i did.
but now it's shifted over that oh-so-very-thin line to hatred,
and i'm not going to cross back over.
you can cast me your broken smiles,
shattered eyes all you want; my feet are planted firmly
in the roots of what i believe in.
i do not believe in you,
not anymore. you no longer reside in my soul
where you once held court for so
very long, and i'm not sorry, i am angry --
you are no longer here to decide your own fate,
not even your voice,
so pack your piles of pieces of you from the corners of my conscience and leave.
a brain will not replace its lost cells;
the imprint you left upon my memories will be there
for an infinitely finite lifespan.
you have shaped me - quite literally -
into what i am today, and i love and hate it
in the same way i love you and hate you.
you are a part of me, but i want to break free.
i am ready to forget.
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dear depression,
(master of the umbra)
i hate you.
broken whispers, lonely promises,
you are the worst of lovers, owning all, but
never seeming to be satisfied
even with your name branded scarlet into my wrists.
i am no longer the golden songbird as when you first met me,
but yet
you still hang onto me
your claws
raking across my heart like
my pen ripping across the bloodstained page, like
lightning across the skies, (vengeance
raining down from the gods i used to believe in)
"don't let them catch you,"
you breathed into my ears.
an ounce of life, in exchange for a cloak of darkness (i thought i'd only stay one night)
the fog was sluggish and deep.
so bl
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dearly beloved
these days
your name has been slipping
in and out of my rib cage
and sometimes,
my heart forgets to beat.
it's funny,
i suppose—
how even after all these months i still
don't want to believe that
you're dead. how during the
first couple of weeks i prayed
to a god i didn't believe in and begged to know
if death tasted sweet to you. how once,
when the monsters in my head
didn't let me sleep, i
wrote you three poems and then
destroyed four.
you were a supernova that
lit up my life for
a few radiant moments before,
like all good things in this
filthy world,
you came to an end.
the sinner in me hopes that you have wings now.
but i th
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every footfall echoes your name
In this land where
no one speaks
our past screams out
the loudest, and
in this world
where no one moves
our history walks
beside me -
Though I am deaf
along this path
your heart beats
in my ears and
s w e l l s
within
my chest.
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I'm crying. This is amazing.